second chance

15/02/2013

yesterday was a disappointing night. but overall, at least i got to spend the valentines' day with someone i love, better than those couples who are separated, or those who are singles, or those who have somebody in mind but cannot have them. and then i get to have dinner with his parents. it's a good opportunity to know more about him. and the dinner was really good. i am also thankful that his parents sent me back to my hse after that despite the trouble. appreciate his mom's initiation of inviting me to his place next week to watch lion dance and fireworks. if only my parents would be like this...

i felt a little fed up again, over his lack-of-sensitivity again. and i'm a really "thick-skinned" person. but i couldn't tolerate any longer so i let some of my prides down. it was still... a failure. he just kept saying sorry. sighs. tears keep flowing down for a really long time. and then i release all the "gas" to my bestie. as usual, she would scold me for behaving this way etc etc but at the same time she felt so sad for me but couldn't help.

and then she ask if i had any plans tonight. well, i don't. my parents have function, but it's okay if i followed them. but i declined the invitation because my bro didn't follow, and i don't know anyone there. those that i know are all adults. so she suggested we go to i-city@ shah alam. it's near her bf place anyway. they can meet up. plus i haven't been there before so i'm fine with that.

*pause* and over the few hours after we talked. i thought abt it again. rethought. i told myself that, although it didn't go really well ytd, but i still get to spend it with someone i love. and i realized what matters more is that, i love him.

*resume* after settling everything. it was actually quite late because we are meeting her bf first. and her bf is a usual "dragger". lol. and then we go to pick up my boyfriend. when i saw him from his hse, i just felt thankful that i get to see him and i'd definitely appreciate that moment, and to feel and make the best out of it.   as he get into the car, he surprised me with a stalk of flower :O well, the thing is i really didn't know how to react. but deep inside, i was very very very elated. it's not a real one but it doesn't matter. it's still a flower, and then i won't have to throw it away if it's dying because it will be there forever. <3

we headed to i-city later on. the first thing i did when we got down from the car, was to hug him. i was sorry for being emotional and i wanted him to know that i love him. i wanted to forget the sad things and give everything a second chance. scott even joked and said i should be proud that he could still lift me up because he can't do that to his gf (which is my bestfriend). and omg. i really didn't expect to see what i saw. there were colourful lightings everywhere. the most delighting part was to see a fun fair going on for the CNY festive season! it was beautiful. and definitely a beautiful and extraordinary place for dates. my dear told me that he hasn't been on the ferris wheel before. he thought i would laugh at him, but i didn't. but i haven't sat on it too :P and then... we finally got to sit on it. it's his first time on it, my first time on it, and OUR first time sitting together too :) i really enjoyed the scenery and the moment with him - alone. i also took the opportunity to let him know that i felt really happy. and then ahem. we shared some kisses. XD

after that we just walk around and took some pics.... hmm.... then we watched the ppl play bumper cars. went into the "fun world" with special offer and experience some extinct species. walk around here and there etc. and then it rained. we were running around as we wanted to return the card and get back the deposit. run and pause and run and pause. when we pause, we just stood under the shelter for awhile. and then continue. i know it's possible that we would fall sick, but running around, together, with our hands holding each other, it is a form of happiness.... :') and i keep joking that we could kiss under the rain. haha. well actually it's not a bad idea. he's like... "want ah?" i just said there were so many ppl there who will be watching. he's just like it doesnt matter... hahha welll, i didn't say i don't want.. but it's just... too mainstream to do it on public? :P maybe next time.... i'm sure there will be "potential" times.

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will be updated later. :P