sometimes i just feel like i'm going to burst like a balloon after withstanding too much pressure. the only difference is balloons get heat or atmosphere pressure but mine is the mental tension.
maybe i'm too sensitive/care too much/emotional... but it feels like u don't care at all. u talk to me, i replied. the next reply, was 30 mins later, a few times. u watch tv. fine. is tv more important? u said sorry. if u were sorry, u wouldn't do it right? u can tell me u're watching ur fav movie or an interesting tv show. i'd understand. most of the time, i could've just replied instantly as if u're my priority. sometimes i force myself to resist until a few mins later. so i don't sound desperate or make u feel bad for not replying me straight away.
i don't wanna be paranoid. but idk when's next time we see each other again. & we don't even have much time to chat. it'll be worse during CNY. from Tuan Yuan day evening to 4th or maybe 5th day of CNY i won't be around. Data plans would be useless as it doesn't have network data coverage for 70% of the time. and the fact that u wake up late & sleep/offline early. how do we even communicate?
i sobbed again. for the dunno how many -th time. but you had no idea. you probably wouldn't even know. i just keep it inside. let's just hope i'm strong enough.
i don't wanna be an overly-attached girlfriend. or some controlling bitch. or a psycho weirdo.
it was supposed to be quite a happy day. and this shit. we saw each other today(thursday) again but i dunno when's the next time. it might be 11 days later. it might...
maybe it's just pms. mood swing much. i know girls are complicated. just blame us for being too emotional.
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