well, i sound like troublesome girlfriend, don't i? skin has been bad recently, due to all really late sleeping hours since before midterm (study and stress) then after then during cny and after cny till now. last night decided to sleep early. i went to bed at 11pm + but what? ended up insomnia. rolling here and there. and the time i fell asleep was actually much later than those "late night sleep" time i had. was playing a game i'm currently addicted. then out of lives. what did i do?
random thoughts wandering inside my brain. then i rmb. i always throw tantrum at him. during a specific time. which is when my period is coming soon. then i counted. oh hey, period should be coming around this date and usually a week before i'd have PMS. and the PMS day is TODAY. i keep hoping i don't get mad at him or anything. but today when i woke up. was supposed to eat with him after his morning class. i called him 1st time, he didn't pick up. 2nd time was otw to college while waiting at the traffic light. he answered. but i turned on my speaker and well... idk why but iphone's loud speaker call is really. CACAT. can't hear properly. and i got kinda distracted while i resumed driving. so we agreed that when i reached college i will call him again.
reached college, called. no answer. that time i was in the parking lot. i got out of my car n started walking, called the 2nd time. no answer AGAIN. that time i was checking my student card balance at a machine. fine. continue walking & called the 3rd time. ringing quite long. till i stopped in front of the comp lab which has a glass window visible from outside. i saw him and stared at him, still holding my phone. finally i see him starting to touch his pocket, and just nice he turned his head and he saw me. cancelled the call. then he came out. omg i was so frustrated that time. like wth?! and those 3 calls that he didn't answer, all rang till it entered voicemail. pissed. he went n get his car. we didn't say a word. he kept saying sorry and ask me to not be angry. well.. i really don't like to hear the "sorry" word. especially when it's said so many times.
to me, i think that if someone will feel sorry, then he/she won't let it happen.
while eating. he just keep showing me the smile, hoping i could laugh. seriously, it's difficult. when you are not in a good mood. but then things went better in between. not exactly sure how. then we just started talking like normal again. and there were also sweet moments. talking about future. abt giving birth. LOL. he just said he'll definitely be there if i give birth in the future, provided that if i marry him. i was like, u don't have to be there if you don't want. cos my dad didn't. then i said, only if next time my husband is you(him) then only say. he's like so u are saying ur future husband might not be me? well... i mean, we can't predict the future right.... then he was so nice he accompanied me to class and everything. then second class he was waiting for me too. luckily when he's done, i was almost done with my class too. if not got to let him wait. then we all went to the student lounge play some soccer table, ps3 and everything. then i was hungry.
me, him and P went to have subway. cos our "lunch" was quite early at abt 10 something. we were having subway at 4 something almost 5. so that explains our hunger. otw back to college. cos we're all going home already. P and him were talking abt games. then P said that they should train more for the game's upcoming tournament/competition during sem break. so P asked if he has any plans during the break. he's like... "nahh... the only thing i have to do is to bring my brother out for lunch." we all was like hahaha then he's like serious! blablabla... -.- i hit him and said, "only that ah?" mood changed again. (thinking : the only thing u have to do is to bring ur bro to lunch) angry d la omg. -.- more like upset actually. he then only like 'nooo... not like that" blablabla but i really felt so upset already. i just didn't know what to say. and didn't feel like seeing him. i just looked out the window. he started saying sorry. like again. omg. i hate that word more and more.
then back to college. i just got down from his car and started walking towards my car. he followed behind. then say... "you angry d ah? i'm sorryy..." i just said, "ok, play game la. play a bit more" in chinese. he's like, "no it's not like that, not to say it like that" blaaaaaablaaaaaaablaaaaaaaaaaa. got to my car, and said byebye to him. then checked out my card then dropped him at his car there. he leaned in to kiss me, but that moment only cheek available, i even moved it to the side.
omg. why. why. why. why my boyfriend so insensitive? nvm. like i said in one of the previous posts. guys' common behaviour. whatever. it's not that i don't let you play game. i understand that it's a guys' thing. i get it. in fact, i really appreciate the fact that he actually replied my messages when he's in a game. not sure if he's respawning or pausing or resting or loading the game. but he still replied. like very frequent. and i don't have to wait that long. i am really grateful for that. despite that day during the skype call all the people inside were only talking about games, and i was abit left out. it's okay.......
it's my pms. it will go away....
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